Taking off.......

Today I tried to settle into what I have been learning for the last year and steady my heart to step into who I am.      How many times do I have to stop along the way and position my heart to hear?

The Father knows exactly where we are heading and seems to be very content with all of our adjusting to new levels in our lives.  To me, it feels as though I am constantly stopping and adjusting...how about you?
I have been watching a beautiful male turkey that has decided to come and live in the middle of the city, in my front yard....totally out of his habitat......I have watched him adjust to cars, people and children that think it is funny to chase him.  I have pictures of his beautiful strut, with feathers furled and his call to his mate....and seen him stop in his tracks, tilt his head and watch me as I open the door to take a photo.  He has been at rest outside of my studio under the Rose of Sharon bush, with his eyes on every move I make as I paint and move around in the room.....He is constantly watching and aware of what is going on around him..........
I think that must be part of where we are going.....a bride that is aware of what is moving around her
even when she is out of her comfort zone...still willing to show who she is and release her voice, her words......
I don't normally paint birds, but needed to paint this one for a venue at the furniture market.....and as awkward as this lanky one looks, there is a lot of beauty and power....
So, in this new place of teaching others, or sharing our stories, praying for someone, or creating a piece of art, I know that the Father wants us to believe in the power and beauty of Christ living in each of us, no matter how lanky or clunky our first steps feel........because we learn by doing and we overcome fear by looking at Papa and taking a step...or flying off of the limb.........
What is new for you? what are you risking?
For me, it will be workshops all summer long leading into bringing community together through art and music.....my world is full of dancing in the studio and living for today.....organizing something that will effect others..well, that is way down on my list of strengths.:)
So, Papa, I will expect your bride, with all of her beauty and strength to walk with me and I will honor her and appreciate all of the gifts that are needed to pull this off......I am spreading my wings, trusting your wind to carry me....

Thoughts without a home.......

I am surprised to find that many bloggers have more than one blog....just starting this journey, I have been overwhelmed with the everyday layout, but beginning to feel that i can navigate around a bit. Now I am on this computer, trying to catch up on the important issues of the day that cover an exhibit or something to do with art...but this leaves a huge part of me that I withhold and sometimes want to share.

I think this just might be the little page where I write my words just for me and if you want to come along that would be great.  I don't need agreement or understanding of this funny little space, just a place to say what comes and let it hang in the air as it forms its own direction...those thoughts that are being formed and worked out...that have to hang somewhere between heart and reason and just be.  Almost tangible but you dare not force their formation because you could totally cause a change in outcome.....
You know, the place where you know that God is changing your focus, your belief structure and you have to trust the process and let Him bring all of the pieces together.

Many times I find that the wait is as much a part of the answer as the finished destination....learning to embrace the stillness and like the quiet whispers that begin to emerge from the heart..........

And all of a sudden, you have a piece of revelation, there is an AH-HA moment and you are thankful for  the new download......all the while knowing that you still only have a little piece and must wait for more...it makes me smile...because with each little gift, I know He is chasing after me because He loves me.......